Time's A Wastin' While We Pacin'

Song: Lose YourselfArtist: EninemLyrics: www.letssingit.com

I make reference to this song all the time. Aside from the obviously ill beat, Eninem's crisp diction speaks to us about pushing through the obstacles before us until we come up the victor. This song is not only about being a talented rapper, winning a hip hop battle or overcoming poverty but mainly about facing fears. My fears are; rejection, abandonment, the unknown of what the future holds, being overtaken by pride and embarrassment of failure.
When I get on that stage, will anyone clap?When I make that call, will it just be welcomed with a dial tone?Will I be able to continue paying my bills?Will my kids grow up to hate me?Once I open up my heart, will I be let down again?
These are the questions I ask myself daily. I get the reasoning behind trying to protect oneself. I do it all the time. Yall know me.

BUT those nagging two words 'what if' have taken over my life NO MORE. 'What if' will no longer dwell on my psyche so much that it takes over my life wheel. I'm driving this rig. I'm going after what I want. Period. I can no longer worry about how other people feel and how they will react to my new found courage. Why do we give the past so much power anyway? Ok, so we all know there are consequences and/or circumstances we can't always control once we've made certain choices. What I'm talking about today is PRIDE...What I'm talking about today is the state of "doing nothing"..What I'm talking about today is EXCUSES made. Yes, we can be dead wrong about stuff we do. But, actions we don't take once given an opportunity is the real crime. Like my girl Badu says, "Time's a Wastin". People are leaving this earth at an alarming rate. Why waste the time we've been blessed with soaking, crying, bitching, complaining?! Time IS a wastin' and now it's Time for me to practice what I preach day to day and stop pacin' around the issue. NO more holding back due to fear of rejection. NO more dimming my light. NO more second guessing myself at every turn. NO more telling myself lies. OK, it all sounds good right?! What is the plan?

Well, the REAL opponent is almost never an actual person. So, with any fight you must 'know your subject'. The 'subject' is the thing(s) holding you back from making that next leap. Find the weakness and then strike when least expected. This is a fight plan I intend on winning. Now, I may lose some battles along the way just like Eninem stated in his song below. However, he continued to get back up and press on. At the end of the day, it's about winning so many battles that you are deemed the winner by way of TKO or technical decision. We move too fast and give too much at once trying to get that final KO, in turn knocking ourselves out. Many times we play it too safe and end up with a draw decision. With that decision it just means you didn't finish off your opponent. I am no longer allowing my opponent to dictate my future. If that opponent wants to knock me out, it better hope my confidence is crushed at the same time. If not, I'm getting up swinging and talking shit.Yes, I'm sure there will be times I'll be temporarily knocked out dazed and might have to take an extended leave from the game. But, you better believe when I gain full consciousness and strength..that obstacle better get out of my WAY. Bob, weave, dance...around my essence all you like. YOU best hope I don't get a hold of you with my 1..2..3 combination called skill, persistence and might.

All I'm saying is don't bow out and just disqualify yourself from the fight. Give the fight everything you got with polished technics and smarts. Fight until you've been knocked clean out. PERIOD. And my friends, to be knocked out clean is DEATH. Until death takes us out...GO IN!
If that fear wants to take you out, conquer it by executing the opposite. If your illness is trying to take you out, do research to find an alternative remedy. If you are having a hard time getting by financially, get more strict with your spending. If your love wants to close the door on your possible future together by being prideful, simply...BUST OPEN THAT DOOR *POW* and be like, "GET THAT SHIT OUT OF HERE!"

Even if you don't care for hip hop, please listen and read along with the song lyrics. Powerful...Passionate Message!

Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted, one moment
Would you capture it, or just let it slip? Yo
His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgettin'
What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out
He's chokin' how, everybody's jokin' now
The clock's run out, time's up, over, BLOW!
Snap back to reality, oh, there goes gravity
Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked, he's so mad
But he won't give up that easy, no, he won't have it
He knows his whole back's to these ropes
It don't matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke, he's so stagnant that he knows
When he goes back to his mobile home, that's when it's
Back to the lab again, yo, this whole rhapsody
He better go capture this moment and hope it don't colapse on him
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
The soul's escaping through this hole that is gaping
This world is mine for the taking, make me king
As we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is boring, but superstardom's close to post-mortar
It only grows harder, only grows hotter
He blows us all over, these hoes is all on him
Coast to coast shows, he's known as the globetrotter
Lonely roads, god only knows he's grown farther from home
He's no father, he goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose cuz here goes the cold water
These hoes don't want him no mo', he's cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose dove and sold nada
So the soap opera is told and unfolds, I suppose it's old partner
But the beat goes on da da dum da dum da da
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
No more games, I'ma change what you call rage
Tear this mothafuckin' roof off like 2 dogs caged
I was playin' in the beginnin, the mood all changed
I been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhymin', stepped writin' the next cypher
Best believe somebody's payin' the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the fact
That I can't get by with my nine to five
And I can't provide the right type of life for my family
Cuz man, these goddamn food stamps don't buy diapers
And there's no movie, there's no Mekhi Phifer
This is my life, and these times are so hard
And it's getting even harder tryin' to feed and water my seed, plus
Teetertotter caught up between bein a father and a prima donna
Baby mama drama screamin on and too much for me to wanna
Stay in one spot, another day of monotony
Has gotten me to the point I'm like a snail
I've got to formulate a plot or end up in jail or shot
Success is my only mothafuckin' option, failure's not
Mom, I love you, but this trailer's got to go
I cannot grow old in Salem's lot
So here I go with my shot, feet fail me not
This may be the only opportunity that I got
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
You can do anything you set your mind to, man

Love you so much for this one Eninem...

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