this is for you Joy...truth

Truth is a funny thing isn't it?! Truth is one of those things that can cut and heal at the same time. Truth is only true once it is relative to your acceptance. We crave it. We try to live by it. I even crave to know other people's truth just to learn different ideas of life. We all should have a place, a forum to speak our truth. Sometimes we spend our whole lives seeking the truth about so many things, but only realizing that we are the missing link to truth's true meaning. Not respecting someone else's truth is like not believing in their right to live. Debating someone else's truth is only for mere entertainment. Because if that truth is how someone feels deep within, no bullshit, they will not waver from it. Trying to convince someone to see something the way you see it is like telling them to gouge out their eyes and replace them with your sight....delete their memories and experiences and replace them with your life. Most times I debate it just to see if they really believe what they speak. But, once truth is staring me in the face and it's not what I hoped. I thank the person, accept it and try my best to move on.


We go through life thinking we are living clearly treating others in a way that can't be subject to debate. And yes, maybe you did what you thought was right in your eyes. Maybe you loved that person the best way you knew how. Maybe you did your job with the knowledge you'd learned and applied it liberally daily from 9 to 5. Maybe you taught your kids to live right due to the consequences of the decisions you made in your life. But, the twist is when your truth has an audience. And that audience is any and everyone that comes in contact with your life. Once you let people in, they have an equal say as to how they see what you do through their eyes. Sometimes we believe in our truths so much that we are not capable of seeing someone else's. We are often so enveloped in what we deem as truth we miss the exit signs..the get out of the lines..the screams for freedom...the we are no longer a believers...the move on there is nothing else to see here.


There is one type of truth that I will try my darnest not to debate. And that truth is when someone tells me straight no chaser how they truly feel about me. It may take me a minute because most times we are moving so fast from the momentum of our own giddy feelings. We sometime unknowingly try to convince others to get on board with our truth while totally shunning how they may feel in the moment. But, once you slow down and truly listen, feel and watch what someone is telling you, the big picture will be revealed. And that big picture is that just because you are alive...just because you love hard...just because you work hard...doesn't mean someone else will believe that you are.


and Joy that is the truth...whenever you waver from what you wrote here, come back and read it until this truth is what you believe again...